Indeed it was, thought we were in the clear and then got that last terrible phone call. I know that we will get another cat. Clara showed up here one day in 2018 about 3 weeks after Dash disappeared. (He would be gone for a day or two on some odysseys in the woods and never returned from last one) She helps with the hole in my heart from that loss, but Clara is not a lap cat or very friendly beyond me. So she needs one for sure when the time is right.
One last thought to express and I hope this is understood as intended. She was the last of our older cats; in the past 2 years we have lost Garfield, Simba, Buddy and now Dot. Simba and Buddy were suffering and we had to DECIDE when their lives would need to be ended. In Dot's case, it was not a decision on our part. Part of me says she had a few good years left, but nothing is ever certain. Time to pick up the pieces.